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Miss Redflower
18 hod ·
Dear friends,
As many of you already know…a few days ago my life partner and best friend Robert Dickeson aka Apex / Unknown Error / Robert Oaks / Midnight Lamp sadly passed away. He was the Love of my life. Even though it wasn’t always easy it was still the most special human relationship i have ever experienced. He had the best heart in the world and his music opened hearts and was pure LOVE. At least thats how I always saw it. We’ve gone through very difficult and tragic times together but we also shared a lot of joy and love.
This is a very hard time for me and I am unable to describe the feeling when someone so close to you is ripped out of your life from one day to another. It hurts so bad yet its so unexpected that in moments its hard to even grasp or accept. It still feels like a bad dream and sometimes I slap myself in the face just to see if maybe I wake up from it.
I loved him very deeply and though we had our problems we still were like soul mates and shared everything. We lived together for the past 10 years with our cats, Sweet One, Eva and Pingala which he also loved deeply.
Unfortunately we struggled a lot financially the last few years but we tried to support each other as much as we could. We didn’t have much but we had each other which was all that counted and which was priceless!!!
Though it pains me that the financial situation I am left in doesn’t even give me the capability to give him an honorable burial.
I know that he never wanted anything pompous. He never wanted people to mourn him or gather in the face of his passing.
But he still deserves a respectful way to leave this human life.
Therefore I am going to ask, if there is anyone who wants to make a contribution / donation towards his burial. Please Paypal me at:
info@missredflower.de
(I'm in Germany so it would have to be in Euro)
Anything helps!
Please understand this feels really ambiguous to me and I’ve been thinking for two days weather I’m going to ask social media for donations or not. But i also know that the last thing that Rob wanted is to leave me struggling after his death, which is why I decided to do it.
As his closest companion I see it as my responsibility to take care of his funeral. It’s the last thing i can do for him and I want to make sure Its done right and the way he wanted it which is as simple as possible and without any ceremony.
Thanks
Kat