No tak ani třetí manželství s američanem Animě Noiře neudělalo úplně dobře...
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So my husband, Ian Ferguson, wants me to 'issue a public retraction' on any claims that he has abused me'. Were he to stop his bullshit threats and coercion tactics perhaps there would have been a way, but don't look for a way where there is none.
All I did was I published a poem about post-traumatic stress disorder, and in it, I mentioned that my PTSD has gotten worse ever since I got thrown onto the street by my own husband with no money, no income, no work permit, no means of transportation, no bank account, no Social Security, and no visas.
I am literally worse off than the homeless of this country, as a result of my marriage. I am applying for residency under the Violence Against Women Act.
Did I claim he ever hit me? No. There is much worse you can do to a woman to enslave her, and brainwash her into submission. It didn't fully dawn on me what I went through until I was gone, in a safe place.
The sad thing is that I was always aware of these stories, but you just think it cannot happen to you, that you are not Juana from Tijuana. In the end, all of these love stories end the same, with the American man threatening you and mocking you with deportation "I will put you on a plane" and "good luck back in Eastern Europe". Once he said this on December 26th, I knew it was over. Everything that's happened since has been just events put into motion unfolding at their own pace.
The reason I am choosing to air this publicly is that I finally feel that I am safe & that I can stand by my own story.
I also realized that this was perhaps bound to happen because I made a mistake in the past, I found myself in a similar situation twice and I let it slip. Out of fear and due to embarrassment I never said a word, in public or at court, against my first husband Bobby Skinner, and the second one, William Est (that marriage was legally void). I acted cowardly out of fear of black magic, and being endlessly stalked by men who got nothing to lose.
William was almost the reason I married Ian for protection because he was still after me when I came to the USA last summer, stalking and plotting against me with despicable people like Zeraphina Angelus who unsurprisingly surfaced again to try to back abusive men in her inglorious campaign of conquest by slandering every woman that she feels threatened by in her insecurity.
It was so bad I got sick twice last year from William's black magic. I only ever wanted that horror to stop, once I realized I married a conman who was badly addicted to such cocktail of chemicals that it frankly makes EA Koetting look sober. Ask yourself, just how much drinking does it take for a man to develop gout by age twenty-five?
William has it. He doesn't know if it is day or night, he suffers from delusions that I am his Infernal Queen in another dimension and he has been on SSI for mental illness his whole adult life. I didn't even want to see him in person in Montana last year, I was so stressed that I had a migraine and vomited all night while transferring on my flight in Seattle. I had nowhere else to go, so I went to Montana where I witnessed some very disturbing stuff. Him being lewd to his parents, threatening violence, everybody was drunk and beating each other up. I tried to file a petition for residency as an abused spouse, but my attorney explained to me the marriage was never legally valid. William has threatened to kill me a bunch of times, sending gangs, his criminal buddies, contractors etc.
Now being accused that I am the domestic abuser in that situation was so traumatizing for me that I tried not to look at all the slander that people were bringing to me from Zeraphina last year in August and September. I thought that I was safe in a benign marriage to Ian, and starting a new life finally, that was all that mattered to me.
William is not the only Black Magician guilty of criminal-level stalking of women. This type of possessiveness runs rampant in our circles. I have learned in recent weeks that my sympathy for Elric Ragoczy of the Order of Defiant Darkness has been misplaced. Instead of using his publicity to revive his Order and give back to the community, he used it to air his twisted story of a runaway soulmate bride. That is not how it happened, and Elric refused to take advice from any of us and start acting reasonably. Women are not possession! We have the right to say no.
I wrote about how sometimes we are asked to 'get out of the way of magic' and what I was secretly referencing was him, Lucifer told me last summer to let Elric fall but I did not listen. I now believe that the public character assassination of Elric in 2020 came from a justified place. He is obsessive around women, and he truly doesn't get it.
I have realized that I cannot honestly back Sisters like Barbie Garrett and Orlee Stewart with their histories of abuse without standing up to myself, regardless of how unpleasant it is. I've let this stuff get very far, always seeking protection from one man in the hands of another, always being afraid to draw more hostilities, more black magic, not wanting to look like I am stirring up drama.
I don't care anymore. All men must learn to recognize right from wrong. All men. Not only the Black Magicians, even though they are in many ways the worst.
I married a man who acted as White Knight in good will, and look how I ended up. He didn't even put me on his health insurance or his phone plan! My business and my prospect of citizenship were utterly sabotaged, and I was receiving a monthly allowance of $200.
That is one hell of a discount trophy wife, to lure in to live with you at your mother's at forty-five. In the end, the White Knights are even worse, because you don't see it coming.
This experience made me think about all the notorious men in my past who I thought were the Devil Himself but I swear they would never do this kind of thing to me.
Having to keep the curtains closed during daylight because my husband was accusing me of 'parading myself sexually in front of neighbors' is just a snapshot of what my life was like in Oregon under his pathological jealousy.
I was told I cannot wear my beloved Killstar clothes because 'people would attack me' and not just verbally, he wanted me to believe I was painting a target on myself for lynching! In Oregon, in 2021!
I was also never given a functional phone charger. Instead, he tried to brainwash me that 'all are faulty' and 'they don't sell them' so I had to borrow his. I had to steal it when I fled just so that I had means of communication.
Trying to constantly defy his insanity took a lot from me, in the end, I didn't even have the energy to work anymore. I still don't.
This is an example of the kind of fucked up shit that he covers up now by making it look like I am a 'poor deluded victim of other men' who is just projecting her trauma on him.
No, I know exactly who did what to me, and this year the butcher's bills are going to get paid. We need to put an end to this whole philosophy that 'Might makes right', the ways of coercion and violence, and break the fear spell that has permeated the occult community. We are headed in the right direction as a collective, I feel it strongly.
I very much prefer to make art such as poetry or writing channeled messages, and taking photographs to posting shit like this, but unfortunately, no amount of pictures and poems are going to set the record straight. The only retraction I want to issue is that I am ashamed of myself where I left both of my previous husbands walk away for free without as much as mumbling a word, out of fear of their Black Magic.
My third husband, I don't care about his virtue-signaling and low-key threats. Everything he could he already did to me *when* I was his wife. If I had stayed any longer, I would have developed an even worse Stockholm Syndrome. He is an Oath Breaker of the worst kind, he swore to provide for me, and protect me and failed in all of that, put me in harm's way, and made me desolate.
Not even his Patrons stand for this, for the Angels protect the innocent, snd not the guilty. I will repeat all of this in my sworn statement and in front of the divorce court and to the immigration service.
#domesticviolenceawareness #spiritualabuse #magicdefense