I call this book Feelings. I love feeling and will write a big book about it. There will be a description of my life in it. I do not want to publish this book after my death. I want to publish it now. "I am afraid for you because you are afraid for yourself. I want to say the truth. I do not want to hurt people. Perhaps you will be put in prison for writing this book. I will be with you because you love me. I cannot be silent. I must speak. I now you will not be put in prison; legally you have not commited an offence. If people want to judge you, you shall answer that everything you said is God`s word. Than they will put you into an asylum, and you will understand insane people. I want you to be put in prison or into an asylum. Dostoyevsky went to be gallows and therefore you also can go and sit somewhere. I know people who love is not dead and they will not allow you to be put anywhere. You will become as free as a bird when this book is published in many thousands of copies. I want to sign my name of Nijinsky - but my name is God. I love Nijinsky not asi Narcissus but as God." I love him, because he gave me life. I do not pay any compliments. I love him. He loves me because he knows my habits.
"Nijinsky has faults, but Nijinsky must be listened to because he speaks the words of God." I am Nijinsky. "I do not want Nijinsky to be hurt and therefore i will protect him. I am only afraid for him, because he is afraid for himself. I knew his strenght. He is good man. I am good God. I do not like Nijinsky when he is bad" I do not like God when He is bad. I am God, Nijinsky is God.