you can feel how its eating you
from the inside
how its tearing you apart
your very own soul

you try to scream from the inside
beg, cry
or call for help anywhere you look
just to escape it

you try to reason with it
you try to find the logic
you try to find the purpose
but in the end
death is the ultimate saviour

so sometimes, when noone dares to look
you kneel down in a shower
and beg for help
for more time to think
for a break

but there is noone comming

What if your life
is just one big disappointment
and no matter what you do
it never gets better.
What if no matter how high you climb
you always fall all the way down.
What if for every good
you expect dozen of evils.
What if you are scared about feeling good
because you know
the better you feel, the worse will the impact be.

What if all you want is a break
but thats the only thing you can never have.

I don't suffer from insanity, I enjoy every minute of it

The people on this planet
they live their lives
trapped inside their primitive skulls,
depending on flesh and bone
to tell them
what the universe is like.
They don't know what it is
to see beyond the physical.

Touch this flower.
This is how they know their universe.
They touch the flower,
their nerve impulses travel up their arm
to the brain,
and in their mind, they sense the moisture of the petals,
the texture of the leaves, the sharpness of the thorns,
and they think they know
what it feels like.

But they don't.

We the willing, led by the unknowing, doing the impossible for the ungrateful;
We've done so much for so long with so little, we are now qualified to do anything with nothing.

I salute all survivors!

if you're going to try, go all the
way.
otherwise, dont even start.

if you're going to try, go all the
way.
this could mean losing girlfriends,
wives, relatives, jobs and
maybe your mind.

go all the way.
it could mean not eating for 3 or 4 days.
it could mean freezing on a
park bench.
it could mean jail,
it could mean derision,
mockery,
isolation.
isolation is the gift,
all the others are a test of your
endurance, of
how much you really want to
do it.
and you'll do it
despite rejection and the worst odds
and it will be better than
anything else
you can imagine.

if you're going to try,
go all the way.
there is no other feeling like
that.
you will be alone with the gods
and the nights will flame with
fire.

you will ride life straight to
perfect laughter, its
the only good fight
there is.