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you can feel how its eating you
from the inside
how its tearing you apart
your very own soul

you try to scream from the inside
beg, cry
or call for help anywhere you look
just to escape it

you try to reason with it
you try to find the logic
you try to find the purpose
but in the end
death is the ultimate saviour

so sometimes, when noone dares to look
you kneel down in a shower
and beg for help
for more time to think
for a break

but there is noone comming

What if your life
is just one big disappointment
and no matter what you do
it never gets better.
What if no matter how high you climb
you always fall all the way down.
What if for every good
you expect dozen of evils.
What if you are scared about feeling good
because you know
the better you feel, the worse will the impact be.

What if all you want is a break
but thats the only thing you can never have.

I don't suffer from insanity, I enjoy every minute of it